By Guinn Sweet
“Blessed is the (wo)man whose strength is in thee; in whose heart are thy ways, who going through the vale of misery use it for a well … they will go from strength to strength” (page 84, line 5, Prayer Book, 1662).
Just as fatigued and dehydrated man requires physical water, so does the spiritually fatigued and dehydrated (wo)man require the spiritual “water of life,” for day-to-day strength. We have become of a set existence, created and maintained through the dreaded waiting period of Colon’s waning life.
I must tell you that it is not all hopeless, due to the fact that Colon is being prepared to enter into an everlasting, painless life when he has finished his struggle with this one. It is I and our family who struggle with his last days. The actual truth is that he was totally pain-free until three weeks ago, when he fell and injured his back. Since that time, he has been in more-or-less constant pain. Not being able to diminish that pain has brought a sense of helplessness, even more, I think, than being able to rid him of the cancer. I know that he will survive that pain and eventually it will lessen, but the futility of not being able to help him over this pain has highlighted the fact that there is probably a greater pain coming, over which I will have even more futility of its not being in control.
We have been surrounded by those who love us both. I have help and understanding of a large number of friends. One of those friends drives by regularly and takes me to lunch, drives me around Freestone County, pointing out the homes of church friends and other points of historical interest. I had the pleasure and challenge to have been requested to edit a book just written by that friend regarding the history of Antioch Cemetery, a very long-existing area which was set aside more than one-hundred years ago as the resting place of Civil War survivors, soldiers and settling families of Freestone County. This was a pleasant activity which removed, somewhat, the day-to-day reminder of Colon’s condition, with the interest of a special time for this part of Texas.